help! i need a vacation!...but how can i get away from ME?

i have been completely on edge lately. just too much going on and i am stressed out. normally...i am very laid back. not much phases me. (this excludes anything that entails patience!) my goal for this summer was to not have any set plans. i wanted to be carefree and concentrate on ME! not only on getting cancer free, but getting mentally healthy as well. (and trust me....that is WAY more challenging and difficult than getting rid of cancer!) my "plan" included meditation, yoga, cooking healthy and delicious meals, and basically living a more healthy, stress free, "zen" lifestyle.

well...as everything else in life, things usually dont go as we plan them. i am no exception. my palm is filled with "to do" lists up the wazzoo. my phone constantly rings. (i know..."poor me" to have so many wonderful, caring friends.) and my car is on auto-pilot to hospitals and dr. offices. hayden has his allergist, willoughby has his vets, and me...well i can keep every doctor in town in business. i havent made the time to go to yoga, and when i try meditation...all i can do is think about the stuff i have to do. and my stresses go on and on.

so i expressed to dan, my desire to go on a vacation. wait! scratch that! i expressed my NEED for a vacation. i have visions of an extremely overpriced hotel with frette 1000+ count sheets, no other people, (excluding room service and butler), sandy beaches, palm trees, spa, frou-fou icy blended drink in hand (complete with pineapple slice and cherry garnish and umbrella), and most important...my most favorite-est thing in the world...A LAZY RIVER! (*side note....i actually researched installing a lazy river in my backyard. unfortunately....we live in michigan, in a house, in a subdivision. when we move to a sprawling estate in the middle of nowhere, ill research it more thoroughly.)

heres the problem. my vision of a perfect vacation would include having my son and animals with me. all of which bring me extreme happiness, yet also seem to be the root of most of the stresses in my life. (solution: bring nanny and animal caretakers). ditto for the cell phone and computer. i love the idea of being phone and computer free; but it also panics me a bit. (solution: dan said we could hire a social secretary to be in charge of my phone. good idea! i might check into that.) and obvioulsy a perfect vacation would include...ME! but the number one stress in my life is....ME! (solution: cant figure that one out! develop multiple personalities and send one of them? put my tumors in a peetrie dish until i return?) i dunno...even with my very creative ideas, i am just stumped on a solution for this one.